Sick but happy.

I have a chest infection.
I have my period.
I haven't slept properly the last few nights.
I have a headache that won't shift.
I can't get my head round work.

But I'm surprisingly not too stressed.

A little grumpy yes. And definitly irritable. But not too stressed.

This time last year I would've been freaking. I like that I'm calmer these days.

I spent this afternoon working on the proposal for the piece of work that I wanted to create with Rob. He agreed to it the other day. Surprised me on the bus by being like so you know that idea you had... I'm excited and really hope that we manage to get a residency to explore it.

I also had a really good masterclass with the nts yesterday. It was on contemporary theatre practice which is something thats really interesting me at the moment. And its something that I feel I have the ability and confidence to do. This time last year or even a few months ago I don't know if I could have. Its funny how life and circumstances impacts on your confidence and self esteem.

Part of me almost wants to go and do some study again. Or at least have longer in the workshops and skill ups that I've been doing. I've been getting so much out of them, I'm enjoying learning and feel that its reaffirming my own practice. I want more workshops, maybe one a week please?

I'm excited to see whats next....

H x